I am surrounded by friends, but I feel alone.
I search for myself, only to find that I am lost.

I still possess courage to fall in love,
Yet I’m blind to the risk of not feeling anything at all.

I wait my turn for life to take me away,
and as it does, I tell myself “that’s just how life is.”

I look through a window, to a distant horizon,
I see all the possibilities I left behind.

Possibilities of a world that can cause me no harm.
I can sense an eternity of time.

Through the crowded noise,
I hear silence that defines my doubts and my reality.

The Miracles of Earth,
become my frame, who I am and who I can be.

Slowly, I lose all hope and I sigh,
But I still see a distant light and so I fall.

All I wanted was a companion,
To take me through my days and through my dreams.

With empty hands and clenched fists,
I fall into the depth, I know not my return.

Like dancing all night long,
To one single song, stuck on repeat.

Is it guilt or is it envy that has destroyed me?
Is it love or is it hate that holds me together?

I wonder, what does happiness sound like?
Does it sound different than falling?

What does it take to win I ask,
The hostile days that filled my past are no more.

What does it take to beat a monster that is bigger than me?
The monster I call life, love, and dreams.

I ask myself a million questions, but never the right one.
I lost you long ago but I still wonder why.

Contradictions fill my mind, contradictions that make perfect sense,
And yet make no sense at all.

And so I fall.